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Posted by Judith I have been reading all your posts. Your special stories of bravery, and trying to hold onto a little bit of strength, brings tears to my heart. Losing a spouse is not something I would wish on my worst enemy. Tonight, I have been working, and its been a fairly easy night, but its allowed me to think more about my Roy. On nights that were like this, I'd go on break and call him. We'd chat for 1/2 hour over the phone. I miss that. I miss him being there waiting for me with his smile and arms, and that tender good morning kiss after work. Sometimes he'd surprise me and be waiting for me in bed with pancakes. My precious honeybear, he'd hold me and rub my back til I'd fall asleep. Then, he'd very carefully get out of bed, and do his stuff for a few hours, while I slept after a 12 hour night shift. Because of my messed up schedule, we'd go shopping at Super Walmart for clothing and food at 230 in the morning. Now I sit at the computer and get bored. Miss him more and more every moment he's gone longer. I went to a card tournament this weekend, and won 3rd place. I was thrilled, but on my drive home, I started to cry. Roy taught me this game. Roy would have been soooo proud of how well I'd done. Roy, Roy, Roy. I need you now more than ever. I'm so sorry friends, for just going on and on, I guess there is no time frame for when missing your husband ends. I still wear his ring around my neck and I still have mine on my left finger. He gave me my fairy tale wedding. There will never be another man that I loved so much, that it tears my heart out everytime I get a flashback. Thank you for listening,
on 9/17/2007, 5:46 am
Dear friends,
Lovingly,
Judith
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