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Posted by Judith I appreciate that you are trying to help us, but I must say, you angered me a little bit. I thank God that I was able to be with my husband, even if it was short. I have been positive in my outlook, but grief is grief. You can't just turn it off with a positive affirmation of today I won't cry. I pray to God in Heaven that he continues to be at my side, and nearby my husband whom He obviously needed for more beautiful things, but I still feel a very big emptiness. I have bad days... its part of MY process, and I know my husband is nearby as are angels of God to help me through, but they are still bad days. I'm sorry if I sound bitter, but I was very upset when I lost my husband. I have come to accept that God needed him, and I feel the love inside me when I weep is the strongest. There is healing in tears, and I shed them often. May God help you through your rough days, and sometimes a bad day, is just a bad day, please do not try to diminish it by trying to tell us, that we can affirm by believing that if we say its a good day, that it will be so. I have seen the sunsets, the sunrises, the autumn colours, the never-ending concentric circles on a fish-filled pond, they are God's beautiful works, and the wind and the way the leaves move, I have listened to His whispers, but, my heart still mourns, even on these beautiful days, and I feel, this is okay. Judith
on 10/23/2007, 12:33 pm, in reply to "Re: can't take it anymore"
Dearest Pastor Ed,
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