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Posted by Connie on 11/2/2007, 9:57 am
How do I move on after the deaths of my 2 children. It has been 30 yrs since I lost my daughter and almost 10 yrs. after my son died. I am so very lonely everyday of my life that I really don't care if I live to see tomorrow.When my daughter died in 1977,at 3 yrs.old I also lost a big part of my life and soul and didn't think anything could be as bad as what my husband and I was going through at the time.Thank God I had a 7 year old son to help get me through the hardest time in my life,so I thought. It did get alittle better over the 20 yr. span. And then in 1998, our Son died at age 27 and it has never got easier to cope with the pain, I feel as though the rest of my heart and soul has been ripped from me. I know it is just as hard on my husband as it is on me. I try to live a little each day but I just can't seem to get up the steam to do anything at all. I stay in the house most of the time and I don't want to go shopping like other women do I know I'm making my husband suffer along with me. But when you get up every mornigh and not have your children to talk to,it's very hard. I have family members tell me I have to move on,but they don't understand what it is like to lose the 2 most important part of your whole existance. I feel like telling them to call me up after they lose their whole family and we will talk about it then. The people who tell me this has still got all of their children to call,write and visit unlike my husband and I. We will never have that chance again.
If anyone can give me some hope as to moving on I would love to hear from you, I really need someone that has gone through this to give me some advice. Because only the mother that has lost all of her children can really know what I'm going through.
I hate the holiday season because my children loved that time of the year. And I miss them all through the year but more at that time of year.
Connie
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