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Posted by Luis on 12/24/2007, 6:02 pm
Hello,
1st time poster here and I feel the need to scream out my pain. My partner of 17 years is slowly dying. He was diagnosed with HIV in 1996, and has battled cases of pneumonia, wasting and toxoplasmosis. 2 years ago, he had a heart attack, which made him even more weak. Last year, I had to take him to the hospital, because he wasn't able to breathe. He was on an intubator for 10 days, and was then diagnosed with COPD. We've talked about death, but it has never seem so close as it does today. He can't move much without getting out of breath, and his heart is so weak that I fear every day I may wake up and find him gone.
I miss him already so much, he's been my only friend for all these years, and not sure what will happen to me when he's gone. I know time will help, but watching him suffer is hard on me, and I'm sure him watching me being sad isn't helping.
Is anyone else experiencing this? He's still here yet he's not. I'm trying to be strong as I am his only support.
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