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Posted by Debbie/NH on 1/18/2008, 1:26 pm, in reply to "Dear Debbie"
Hi Yolandi,
Glad you made it through the day. I'm so proud of you. And do not feel bad because the tears came. That is normal and you hurt and you cry.
I work with mainly all men. My boss is semi retired so she only works about 10 days a month so I'm here with the guys for the most part.
They were very helpful to me in the beginning. They let me talk to them and let the pain out. Unless someone else from your office has been in this situation they don't understand how you feel. Plus if he worked there with you that they too are feeling the pain of loss but not in quite the same way. You're doing great. Go easy on yourself. The road is long and hard but the sun will shine and you won't hate it so much one day I promise.
This weekend my son and I are going to a football game. Our home team is the New England Patriots and we are playing for a championship to earn the right to play in the Super Bowl. Not sure if you follow football or not.
I honestly believe that your mom is right AJ was there to check up on you and do his part to help you through this awful time.
See he no longer even cares that you had a disagreement before the accident. To him he just knows that he loves you and always will. We all fight and disagree but do you stop loving someone for that. Certainly not.
My love for Richard is still strong and will carry me through.
I was so excited to read that you dreamt and he was with you for a whole day. Do you realize that was the answer to your prayers. You wanted more time with him and you did get it.
To this very day I have not had one dream of my Richard but I know some day I will get my prayer answered and have that one more day or time.
AJ must love you so very much too.
You always knew he was heavenly now he has shown you that you were right. He is the man of your dreams both in heaven and on earth.
Keep on praying I am so proud of you.
What are you going to do this weekend. Although I'm guessing you won't see this till monday.
Do one thing for yourself-get up-find a friend and get out for awhile or get out with your mom.
See a movie or something basic. Just try to do one thing. It's one small step at a time. That's what I had to do. AJ will be so proud of you for trying so hard.
Talk to you next week
deb
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