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Posted by char on 2/1/2008, 7:31 am, in reply to "For Char...."
thank you jill, you sound so young what you said sounds like it's from the heart so don't shortchange yourself on not helping very well aren't we all going through the worse pain that we could ever imagine sometimes there i blamed god i believed with all my heart that god was going to heal him but i guess god wanted my angel now since he was broken I MISS HIM WITH MY WHOLE BEING.i miss
his hugs and kisse's everything about him i miss my heart even cries but if god took him to save his dignity then I THANK HIM! DOYLE WAS A VERY STRONG MAN HE NEVER COMPLAINED ALL THE 9 MONTHS HE LIVED WITH LUNG CANCER OUR DOCTOR DIDN'T EVEN KNOW SO WE WE'RE ALL SHOCKED AT HIS PASSING HE PROMISED ME HE WOULD TELL ME IF ANYTHING CHANGED HE NEVER DID BUT AFTERWARD TWO OF HIS GUY FRIENDS TOLD ME HE SAID TO THEM THAT HE COULDN'T WIN THIS ONE HE PROTECTED US HE WAS AMAZING!HE HAD ARTHRITIS IN HIS BACK SO ALL HE EVER SAID TO ALL OF US WHEN ASKED IF HE WAS IN PAIN WAS AWW, JUST IN MY BACK HE KNEW THAT WOULD THROW US ALL OFF BECAUSE HE'D USED THAT PHRASE FOR YEARS SO WE ALL THOUGHT JUST NORMAL PAIN AS HE CALLED SO NOW I FEEL BROKEN AND SHATTERED I'M TRYING TO GET DISSABILITY BECAUSE OF ASTHMA BREATHING PROBLEMS I'M PRAYING TO LET ME GET THIS SO I CAN GET OUT AND DO SOMETHING OR DECIDE QUICKLYNO SO I CAN FIND SOMEKIND OF JOB I CAN DO SITTING AT HOME DOING THE WAITING THING DOES NOT HELP ME AT ALL
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