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Posted by Jill on 2/4/2008, 10:48 am, in reply to "doyle"
The sleepless nights are the worst, Char. I just lay there with a million thoughts running through my head. I like to imagine that God really did need Doyle, just like he needed Rob. I think about all the things they must be doing up in heaven, having all kinds of new experiences. I watched the Giants win last night (Rob's favorite football team) and I thought of him in heaven with everyone yelling at him to shut up and stop cheering so much!
I know what you mean about not being ready to lose him yet. Since Rob was in an accident there was no preparation at all. Sometimes I can't even imagine how I managed to get through the whole things - the death, wake, funeral, etc. I almost feel like I'm not really that person who did get through it and I have to remind myself that yes- it really did happen. Even looking at pictures of me and him have the same effect....was I really that lucky that I got to share such a wonderful relationship with such an amazing person? I'm trying to hold onto all the memories, but it just gets so hard.
Hope the snow is not too bad where you are, Char. It's just flurrying a bit here, and hopefully it won't accumulate too much. Today is Rob's birthday, so I'm heading to the cemetary later & out to dinner - I don't think 10 feet of snow could stop me - but I certainly hope it doesnt get that extreme!
Loving thoughts are coming your way.
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