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Posted by Judith on 2/5/2008, 7:09 pm
My angel friends,
Listening to your heartfelt stories, and your pleas for help, just makes me remember how hard it was for me when I first became a widow. I couldn't even say the word, widow; nor could I believe that Roy was gone, and I had those dreams where I"d be looking for Roy and when I'd find him, I didn't want to let him go.
I can offer, from my heart, a glimmer of hope, that I have come to realise... opening up to all of you wonderful people whom have listened, and have offered support, really helped me so much. The tears didn't stop for the first year, the second year, they stopped haphazzardly, I'm still at times when I cry non stop, and I give myself migraines, and I cry so hard, I still start choking and throwing up... but... I have good days too... Good days when I wake up and see a beautiful sunrise, of lavendars, pinks, dark blues mixed with magentas, and then the evenings when I drive home from wherever I've been, and the moon glitters off the shiny snow and the spectacular blizzards we've had leaving the trees with silver branches glittering in the sun, the icicles gleaming from the rooftops that hang down from high and touch the ground, that is Roy... sending me such beautiful reminders that love continues... no matter where he is.. he will ALWAYS love me, and no matter where I am... I will ALWAYS love him....
God has a plan for all of us... mine was to share my beautiful stories and to try to help those who need love and support, this site is in God's plan, Rob will always love you Jill... even though you were never married, you will always be.. HIS PRECIOUS FIANCEE... the one he will spend the rest of his soul with...
Char, the images of your last days with your Doyle, will haunt you.. you will be driving and a flash of him in bed looking sick, will just happen, you will fall asleep and there he'll be, as healthy as he was before he was ill.... the mind plays very cruel tricks.. enough to make you think you are losing it... but, believe me... these images eventually give way to the wonderful, precious moments you and he shared....
Forever in your arms; Forever in your heart; Forever eternal flames of love, I send you to God...
Lovingly,
Judith
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