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Posted by Yolandi on 2/14/2008, 10:56 pm, in reply to "Re: Dearest Yolandi"
Hey there
Sorry but i felt as if a car hit me and i was afraid that if i come on here i would cry even more......Yesterday went well....not good but okay???
AJ's mom phoned telling me to enjoy the valentine and then.......I burst into tears ......How can i realy enjoy valentines day if my lovie's not here????Seeing everybody wearing red and getting cards and prezzies and everything made me terribly upset cause i couldn't give him even a hug......The day used to be so buatyful and i used to dress up all in red , but yesterday i felt like wearing BLACK hahaha you know that feeling??
Ive been making some changes in my life ....
I try to keep my chin up and smile ...i know AJ would want me to be the Yolandi he loved so veryy much ....and i know that if i had to be the one who had to leave i would not want him to be alone and unhappy all his live.....
Its difficult and some days are harder than others but im coping and with the pills the doc gave me ...... Im feeling loads better ......I THINK!!!!
I know that your husband is up there in heaven knowing how much you love him .....and he misses you just as much as you miss him ...
Enjoy your day
Huggies...........
Yolandi
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