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Posted by Jennifer's Sister on 2/25/2008, 8:06 am, in reply to "1 month"
Dear Judith,
Something drew me to your posting. I kind of stumbled on this site this a.m. when looking for some way to deal with the loss of my little sister one month ago tomorrow.. She was 34. Left behind 2 lilltle girls and much emptiness and sadness in our family. I've been told how and when to mourn by my parents yet was the only one in the family to seek professional counsel.
If anyone would understand our losses it is us. I have a very similar relationship with my father and don't know how I will react when he passes. He and I just don't click. He is very phony and two faced and I never feel safe with him. He can rage and hurt, I''m no little kid, at 41 years old but the feelings a father can give a daughter are hurtful more than any other. You are right to say life has to go on, it does. Tomorrow doesn't wait for any of us.
The way you felt about seeing your dad laid out is how I felt about my sister. It wasn't her. The last 12 hours of her life she was intubated and recessutated 4 times due to cardiac arrest. Her brain swelled pushing her eyes out. Annywayyyyy, the funeral director did a good job but my sister was beautiful, really beautiful and the person in the casket that I wove flowers through her hair was not her. She was watching from above. It made me think about my own day someday and I am all for not having a viewing.
I have unloaded on you. thank you. Your story touched my heart.
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