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Posted by Debbie/NH
on 2/29/2008, 10:35 am, in reply to "Re: Dearest Debbie"
Hi Judith,
So we are now both coming to that awful day when we stop and remember when God called them home from us. My day will be on tuesday, March 4th and it will be three years since I had him with me. He only lived 18 minutes past midnight on the 4th. My son and I never made it to St Josephs in Nashua. Actually he passed in the ambulance on the way to the hospital before we arrived.
I think of how foolish I was that night. Joey and I took our time thinking it was his sugar's being diabetic and I grabbed him extra clothes to wear home. His winter coat and sneakers and socks. I even let Joey get a cold drink on the way at the Dunkin Donuts near our home since I knew nothing would be open at the hospital at that hour.
I have held that in for the last 3 years thinking people would think the worst of me. I had to think of him and our son. He was only 9 years old at the time and has a few issues of his own and knew if I didn't get him something to occupy him he would drive me crazy while waiting to find out how his Dad was doing. Little did I know that he was gone. I never felt it on the way to the hospital. I thought I would have known when he was gone but that never happened.
I know you have your own loss to deal with. I think you said it's March 2nd but I am not positive. Either way I am there for you in spirit.
Roy must be so proud of you now, watching you struggle to continue on but doing it to make him proud. Like my husband I know that your's had medical issues. But now I feel they are both so strong and the men they were. My husband can now walk again and your's is stronger and happier not being sick. I hope they have met each other.
Did your husband like football? Mine was a huge fan on the game. I still think it's a riot that you actually lived back here where I work. How funny is that? Maybe our guys wanted us to catch that link that we have with not only them but the state too.
I'll be with you in spirit. Hang in there and try to do something that will help you remember him in a special way that day.
I am Catholic so I am having a mass said for my husband's memory on Sunday, the 2nd and I will say a prayer for you and Roy too.
Hope to hear from you soon
Big hugs from NH and Heaven
Debbie
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