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Posted by Judith on 4/22/2008, 12:32 am
I have been tearful these last few days.
The weekend I just spent with all of Roy's and my friends, was terrific, but my heart was so tight as everytime we'd reminesce, I'd turn my head away to cry. I didn't want my new found friends to think I was a cry baby.
But, I guess, oh well... you can't fight off the tears when they come. Next Sunday is the 3rd annual card tournament in his honour, with proceeds to go to the national kidney foundation. Well, so I've been putting things together and last night, putting baskets of things for raffles together, I found all little treasures he kept, and I started to cry.
I thought I was through this part of my grieving, but I guess it just won't go away. I miss my honeybear, I want to hold him still very close to me, and I feel his absence in my life.
His family has been so good to me, and on his father's birthday, I could see the sadness in his dad's face, his youngest son was missing, and I know how empty his heart felt that day.
So, here I am at work, and my heart is heavy. Caring for another patient who is in a similar situation my husband was in, 2 years, 1 month, and 28 days ago. Its hard for me emotionally, and with the weekend I just had, here come the tears again.
I will be okay tomorrow, after some recuperation of sleep. But in the meantime, I lean on all of you for your prayers to help me find peace and healing of my aching heart.
God Bless you my angels,
Lovingly, I thank you,
Judith
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