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Posted by Kristen on 8/13/2008, 5:35 pm
i recently posted in june about the loss of my grandfather in april... most people say that as time goes on it might get easier its only been 4 months but it just doesnt seem to be happening i have an empty feelin inside all the time and thoughts of my grandfather are always on my mind... ive felt like im in a rut and that nothing good is goin too happen... i will be graduating school in a couple of weeks and am one of the few in my class who already has a job things seem to be changing in the luck dept however it just deosnt seem right the good things that are happening are overpowered by the feelings of emptiness i feel everyday my grandfather would be so proud of me and i dont know how im going to get through graduating without him hes always been the one i went to for advice and no matter what he was always supportive of my decisions no matter how outrageous and believe me ive had some crazy ideas .... i just dont know how to get through the day without him in the audience cheering me on like he always has and i know that its selfish that i would think of myself but its just not easy and there are memories of him everywhere how do i work through these without breaking down eveytime
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