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Posted by Debbie/NH
on 9/9/2008, 10:19 am, in reply to "Hi Debbie"
I am so glad to hear from you. I also put my home e-mail address here if you ever feel like just e-mailing me when the spammers ruin a good thing for the rest of us.
My cry did feel good. I understand those times when the months run together and are hard. That's my February and March.. With Valentine's Day, The next week is our anniversary then just 2 weeks later is the other anniversay of when he passed.
Now the end of March will be when I lost one of my very good friends and in 09 it will be the first year.. So it will be a nailbiting time for me yet again.
I have read quite a few of Nicholas Spark's books. He writes some really good stuff.
I just finished a book by Debbie Macomber.. called Twenty Wishes. It was a good book for me..Have you read this one yet? I liked it -one of the women is a widow so she is part of a group that write up a list of 20 wishes for her life now. One of these days I am going to do that.
I also had a decent cry on the first day of school for my son. He is now in the 8th grade and was in 4th when his Dad passed. So hard to believe. He will graduate elementary school next year and it struck me that I'll be there by myself since it will be during the day. I may ask his Big Brother(from the Big Brother/Big Sister program). It would do my ego some good to sit with a hunky looking man. I get some looks when he goes to my son's basketball or baseball game. It's amazing how many heads turn my way that don't know who he is to me. But not having his Dad there for this milestone will be hard.
The leaves should be turning here soon.. The nights are much cooler and the days quite warm.
My crying jags aren't as bad as they used to be. I still have good long ones but that hopless and helpless pain isn't as God awful as it used to be. The despair in the beginning was devastating.
I know I will have one this saturday for sure. It's my birthday and he used to wake me up at midnight just to be sure he was the first to wish me Happy Birthday before morning when my family would call me and sing to me. Sadly my mom may not even remember it this year she is getting so forgetful and my aunt is gone now plus my friend.
I already picked up a bottle of wine and my just sit up and lay back on his pillows on his side of the bed and have a drink.
I am so very glad that you wrote me.. I love talking to you too!
Big Huge Hugs
Debbie
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