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Posted by Matt
on 11/10/2008, 2:24 am
One month ago yesterday my best friend in the entire world committed suicide. All over a stupid girl who could not even show that she cares. He was the one person who knew everything about me, and i knew everything about him. He would come to me about everything, I can remember countless times when me and our other best friend would just sit with him for hours when he was upset. This doesnt make any sense to me, I was with him that day and he was happier than ever. We bought his halloween costume and planned out what we were going to do on halloween. We planned snowboarding trips and he just bought new bindings for his board. Everyone keeps telling me things will get betterwith time, but i dont see that happening. I lost a part of me I can never get back, time will never make this better I feel like. I hate the people who try and talk about this but have no idea what they are saying, acting like they knew about his problems when they had never even had a real conversation wit him. I have thought about suicide, which is something I had never done before. But I know I can not do it, after seeing the destruction left behind, the devistation of his family and friends, and feeling the pain first hand I could never do that, but there are times when I wish I could. He was 19 years old and had so much life ahead of him, this does not make sense to me at all
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