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Posted by Judith
on 11/15/2008, 12:13 am, in reply to "A huge part of my life now gone."
Dearest Brandy,
A hug for you. Just to hold you, and just let it out. Such a tragedy cannot be explained away. The why questions just make us crazy.
My husband has been gone for 2 1/2 years, and I still am lost without him. Of what you speak, I feel that way still.
Roy (my husband) and I had 18 months of married life together. I am still very anxious from September til February. We were married in October, Christmas, and New Years without him are the worst. I am finally getting over the fact that he is not here on my birthday, but its just not the same without him.
He comes to visit me, once in a while. A few weeks ago, I smelled him in the room where I was laying down. Of course, I told him I loved him, and I started crying so hard, because I miss him.
He is still watching out for me.
But its not the same as having him near, to hold, to talk with, to laugh with, to yell at each other.
Brandy, for you pain, I wish that God's Angels take it away quickly. For your grieving, let the tears roll down your cheeks. There is healing in those tears. For your feelings of what have I done, and why did I let him go, may God's touch heal your heart.
I found solace on this site, with such a great support group. I also wrote alot of poetry. Some on here journal, some have scrap booked. Its a way to help deal with the emptiness when you do something that allows you to remember the fun stuff.
I extend my arms to you, and bring you a tissue to blow your nose. Let your head lean on my shoulder, and together, we will get through.
God's love, and my prayers, I send to you and your family for such a tragic loss,
Lovingly,
Judith
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