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Posted by Judith
on 1/8/2009, 12:59 am
Christmas went by without a problem
I thought I could make it without falling apart.
So, the next week, I worked and smiled,
The snow on the ground was white, and the Christmas lights were glowing.
Then, came New Years, with my family at my side
My sister and her new baby, and my other sister and her three children
My mom and dad, laughing out loudly
Opening gifts for 3 hours and clowning around
We were playing cards, as we often do when we
are together
And, as I went to the bathroom, it hit me hard.
The tears just poured out and my heart just shattered.
At first, I couldn't understand. I hadn't fought with my sisters, and everyone was having a great time.
Then, it hit me. My husband is gone, and even though I was with family, I was ALONE.
No children for me, its too late now.
No husband for me for 2 years and a few months.
The love in my heart, I still hold for you my dear
I guess isn't quite healed yet, as I figured out this New Year.
But even as the tears just rolled down my cheeks
I put my brave face on, and went out to be with my family.
I know you always loved my laughter and my smiles
So, I tried very hard, to ignore my pain, and let you enjoy the me you had married.
I love you today as much as I did then
And even if you are in Heaven, I want you to know
My heart feels everything you send me
The rainbows, the snow, and the sunrises
And even those sudden dream visit surprises.
Merry Christmas my Honeybear
I know you can here me from up there
Happy New Year to you too
Your babydoll will always love you.
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