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Posted by camlin
on 2/2/2009, 6:46 pm
i am writing here cos i dont know what to do.
my boyfriend died january 5th. very sudden and unexpected. we met almost 9 years ago, and i knew right away he was the one. and so did he. soulmates. and now hes gone. i cant believe it and i dont understand it. the pain i feel is so deep, and i cant stop or control the tears. i feel so so sad, empty, numb.. i dream about him, he talks to me, or just smiles. and i wake up crying, calling out his name. i dont know what to do anymore. i dont want to get up in the morning, i dont want to go to bed at night. all i want is for him to be here with me again. i talk to him every day, i go through the house looking for him. i feel like im going nuts. i miss him so much, and i dont feel like i wanna go on withouth him. i just wanna be with him. and i dont know what to do. i cant understand hes not here. and i cant cope.
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