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Posted by Judy on 3/12/2009, 8:45 pm, in reply to "Re: My love"
Joe,
Alan died November 5, 2008. I wish I could tell you it will get better. We did everything together and talked and laughed constantly. We used to joke that, if laughter prolonged your life, we would both live forever. He was gone in a second from a blood clot, complications from cancer. Every one, and all the books, tell me it will be easier one day to live with the loss. So far I cannot vouch for that. I am trying to sort his clothes now and can do only a little at a time. Then I have to leave it and do something else. I am an avid reader but could not concentrate well enough to read or even watch TV for more than two months. I still am not as organized and focused as normal. But what is "normal" now? When someone asks me how I am doing, I just tell them there are good days, bad days and worse days. A good day can turn into a bad day in a split second. When you are able to read, pick up a book called "On Grief and Grieving" by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross. It is the best source I have found for describing my feelings. My only consolation is that the last thing he said to me was "I love you."
Judy
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