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Posted by Debbie/NH on 10/1/2009, 3:25 pm, in reply to "Horribly wonderful dreams still won't go away"
Hello Kim,
What you are saying about feeling guilty about going on makes perfect sense to me. I lost my husband 4 1/2 years ago but not to a car accident.
However, I am still in so much emotional pain over his loss. Yet I yearn somedays for some man to hold me, cuddle me and tell me I am beautiful to him. On the other hand I wish every night for my husband to do those things too.
I remind myself at least a dozen times a day if not more how very lucky I was to marry a man like him. He knew all my faults and failures and loved me anyway. Made me feel loved and wanted.
Lots of times what goes through my mind is he is sitting righ t near me yet I can't see him and that is when I feel the pain of the loss yet again.
I wish I could have a dream about my husband but I don't have any at all. I wish I could seehim and talk to him and kiss him one more time but then the tears still come.
Yet in other ways I have moved on. I no longer am afraid to get out and have some fun with my family and friends sometimes even his family
Feel free to write me back I will check in here again. If you want to give me your e-mail address I would be happy to write to you
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