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Posted by darkheart on 1/1/2006, 12:14 am I had a very tight circle of friends. Jim, Tabby, & Justin. Jim, Justin and me have been friends for like 10 years. We met Tabby 3 years ago and she has become a fast friend. Now I have allways loved Justin. We were realy really close we told each other EVERYTHING. Like we had plans to go places and see all these things. and I allways had it in my mind ~one day -when I get over my own insecurities he'll be mine-~ and then he got this b###hy girlffriend who was really jealous of our friendship. So he became distant but they eventually broke up. And we got back to our old ways. 2 years later Justin started going out with his ex again. Jim Tabby and I all talked tom him about how before he let her come inbetween us and treated us all like crap. And he promised that it wouldn't get to that. Then some stuff went down where his gf started talking crap about us (Justins other friends) and long story short Justin kinda pushed us aside and now I really don't even consider him a "friend" anymore. He's just this guy who I occassionally see around the local haunts who says hi to my everynow and then. So after that Me and Jim become alot closer and I eventually develope a thing for him. but once again I don't say anything about it and next thing I know he and Tabby are going out! They go out for a while and I do my best not to be a third wheel. Then they eventually break up. They both said it was mutual but Tabby was heartbroken. I spent alot of nights staying up with her, Ben and Jerry. but life eventually returns to normal. Now Tabby still loves Jim, so I kinda consider him off limits and we become close friends again we even considered going to Spain together because Tabby was going their with her college musical group. But then Jim develops this crush on this other girl -a mutual friend- (and this was months ago) Now lately Jim has kinda been blowing me off and taking me for granted. About a week ago I asked him if he was going to ask the girl he liked out and he said that he didn't know. anoither friend of ours, Allen, was there. And the next day he comes up to me and tells me that I'm "forbidden" to talk to Jim. I figured he was joking and asked why and he went into this huge rant about how sometimes friends who have been friends for a long time start taking each othr for granted and that I shouldn't let jim do that to me. Well I kinda just brushed this off and went on with my life. Well Last night i found out that Jim had been dating this girl since BEFORE thanksgiving. I was ticked so I was all "Well thanks for telling people like your FRIENDS...Unless I'm no longer considered one" and he says "Well I was waiting for the opportune moment to tell you but you're still my friend" now I had talked to him nearly every day between thanksgiving and now. I ran all of the stuff I borrowed from him, as well as some $$$ for the christmas present he had given me to his house and left it on the door step. Tabby calls today and asks me if I'm still mad at Jim. I'm not. It's not worth my time to be angry - but I'm done. So I tell that to Tabby. And she brings up something I said years ago before all this went down and we were hanging out "One day. We'll all be seperated. Probally haven't seen each other for years, ya know, we would have gone our seperate ways. And we'll look back on this and smile just knowing that we once had such great friends." Now I barely remeber even saying this. But Tabby says that I was right about it. Then she hung up. Well its now New Years eve. I'm alone at home instead of partying with my friends getting drunk and trying to decide where to go now. I'm considering moving out of state closer to my family. (My famnily moved a year ago. I decided to stay where I am because of my friends) I'm ready to say goodbye to it all and start a new life. Make some new friends and do this all over again. I'm sure you can tell that I probally am going through a flood of emotions about this. So any song suggestions for me? And sorry this got more winded than I had hoped.
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