Posted by ladymarvy on 5/6/2008, 6:46 am
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This is the day that... I will not be depressed about my weight.
I keep looking down at the spread that covers my lap. This morning when I was working out I started to cry, I wanted this stomach to be gone NOW. Mike said It will go honey you'll see. But all I see it no lap.
These last few days have been so incredibly hard. The pain has been so bad that it has been hard to just stand up out of my chair, or take a step, or walk around my house or yard or even turn over in bad at night... I dont mean to have a pitty party here. I so want to be back to what I was just 6 yrs ago. Before the accident. before the MRSA. Before the Ostiopina, before the lose of cartilage in my joints, before the lung problems, before they found the degenerative bone disease. before,before, before.
As my doctor tells me They wont be able to get me back to that place again but They can help relieve some of the Pain.
How ever I am so thankful That I have my Lord to turn to and My wonderful Husband Mike. Who has been such a blessing. He Never Never complains.
He is always there to help, no matter what.
So Not just for today, I claim that This is the day I will make myself stronger in my Spirit, in my Heart, in my weight lose, I will try not to look back anymore and try to forge ahead not matter how hard it gets, no matter how much pain, no matter what I see before me. As my mom says This to will pass. This is the day I will not stop, keep my eyes forward, So if the tears come let them come it is a part of the process.
I love you all for being my dear friends.
Marvy
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