Posted by sdanzig
on 11/7/2009, 5:57 am
173.79.131.17
Allright girls, let's talk about a Rude Awakening. When I did CD a couple of years ago, I lost 50 pounds of which I gained 40. Well anyway, I went from a size 18 to a size 8. I revelled in my new body and in my ability to wear cute and sexy stuff and I got rid of all my big clothes with a message to myself that I will never be back there again...so yesterday I realized that I have nothing that fits me and I went to Marshalls because I figured I can't live out of sweat pants and sweatshirts because it only depresses me more and guess what I'm right back at my size 18...oh the tears that flowed down my face, I ended up leaving the store and not buying anything because I was hysterical and crying so hard, people must have thought I was insane...wearing sweatpants only hid the fact that I had gone right back up again but it certainly did not help me solve it. Well I just wanted to share this with you becaue I know you will all understand me. So I left the store and headed straight for a cheeseburger continuing to punish myself. Oh I'm crying right now as I write this but I know I will not be judged by any of you and that you will be there to support me and not make me feel more ashamed then I already feel. So today, is day 1 for me of bettering myself, no more footsying around the issue...I'm either going to do this or gain 10lbs more pounds and get more depressed...I choose to live my life and be happy and I know I can do it, there is no reason why I shouldn't be able to take care of myself. O.K. this was long, hope I didn't bore anybody. Love to all of you..we understand each other's struggles where others may not and we understand each other's tears while others may not. Love Sandra
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