Posted by gonnadoit
on 11/7/2009, 8:37 am, in reply to "Rude Awakening!!"
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thanks for sharing that Sandra. I so understand.
--Previous Message--
: Allright girls, let's talk about a Rude
: Awakening. When I did CD a couple of years
: ago, I lost 50 pounds of which I gained 40.
: Well anyway, I went from a size 18 to a size
: 8. I revelled in my new body and in my
: ability to wear cute and sexy stuff and I
: got rid of all my big clothes with a message
: to myself that I will never be back there
: again...so yesterday I realized that I have
: nothing that fits me and I went to Marshalls
: because I figured I can't live out of sweat
: pants and sweatshirts because it only
: depresses me more and guess what I'm right
: back at my size 18...oh the tears that
: flowed down my face, I ended up leaving the
: store and not buying anything because I was
: hysterical and crying so hard, people must
: have thought I was insane...wearing
: sweatpants only hid the fact that I had gone
: right back up again but it certainly did not
: help me solve it. Well I just wanted to
: share this with you becaue I know you will
: all understand me. So I left the store and
: headed straight for a cheeseburger
: continuing to punish myself. Oh I'm crying
: right now as I write this but I know I will
: not be judged by any of you and that you
: will be there to support me and not make me
: feel more ashamed then I already feel. So
: today, is day 1 for me of bettering myself,
: no more footsying around the issue...I'm
: either going to do this or gain 10lbs more
: pounds and get more depressed...I choose to
: live my life and be happy and I know I can
: do it, there is no reason why I shouldn't be
: able to take care of myself. O.K. this was
: long, hope I didn't bore anybody. Love to
: all of you..we understand each other's
: struggles where others may not and we
: understand each other's tears while others
: may not. Love Sandra
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