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Posted by Jung on 3/8/2006, 9:06 pm, in reply to "Re: Why can't I let go?" I just want her to call - I told her I never want to see her again, I don't want to be ####ing friends, I want her back, I love her and thought of her every single moment while she was gone, why did she manipulate me? why did she give me that false hope - then crush it with a ####ing email? i feel like a piece of my soul is missing, i can't sleep at night, i'm drinking way too much, smoking too much pot, stopped exercising, having difficultly concentrating on anything besides her. look, i understand we weren't perfect for each other - but what the #### is perfection? perfection doesn't exist, it's a dream, it's an abstract ideal - we were good, we were damned good. of course we had some downs, we were together for 2 1/2 years, it's not always going to be ####ing sunshine and roses. why can't she understand this? and now she wants to be friends - what the #### does that mean? i want you to come with me when i leave, doesn't that mean anything to you? don't you give a shit about the time we had together? don't you give a shit about me? why the #### did you keep calling and emailing if this is what you wanted? what the #### happened in germany that changed you into this ####ing whore that you are now? i'm having difficulty finding meaning in anything. if this wasn't love then there is nothing for me out there - you haunt my ####ing days and you haunt my dreams, i just want you gone from my mind! but also i just want you to call, to email, send me a ####ing text message, whatever, just acknowledge me you ####ing b###h, don't you have any empathy? you loved me once, don't you give a shit about my pain, about my suffering? i know, i know, i just need to accept it and move on.
I don't understand how so many people give advice such as "You need to accept that it is over and you're not getting back together." Damn it, that's what people are having problems with - the acceptance of the reality of their situations. Telling them to get over him or her is not advice, Christ, they know they need to get over them, but they can't release that fantasy of love. The suffering we're experiencing is from our inability to recognize the difference between our desire to be with this person and the reality that we cannot, the suffering comes from our inability to accept reality as it is and move on - we're all trapped by ourselves, locked in our minds with our old loves, thinking of them constantly, hating them for rejecting us, hating them for not thinking constantly of us, hating ourselves for our inability to accept that they're gone and they no longer love us.
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