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Posted by Anne
on 7/11/2005, 2:19 am
When one of my best friends and I began dating my other best friend began to get jealous, angry, bitter-etc. that our relationship messed up our 'trio'. For months I had to juggle between my boyfriend and my best girl friend because the two would fight all of the time. Despite the constant stress I felt for so long I was almost always happy with my boyfriend. Things finally cooled down and I was able to relax with everyone I cared about at once. Eventually the peace ended and by best girlfirend and my boyfriend got in huge fight. The stress and tention were too much for me to handle and because my boyfriend and I had been having our own minor problems we began to fight and in order to keep my loyalty as a friend i asked to take a break. My boyfriend and I could only last about 2 weeks apart and got back together only to have another 'break' a week or so later. At first I was happy-glad to have my girlfriends on my side and knowing that I was a good and loyal friend and that I had the summer to myself. But soon after I began feeling terrible and still do-its been about 2 months now and for the last 4 weeks I haven't slept more than 3 hours a night, I can't eat, I snap at my friends...I'm a reck. And about a week ago I found out he was seeing another girl and last night he called for the first time-to apologize and say that he hoped I was over him and doing well because he would feel guilty if I was still upset about things when he was moving on. I said I was fine but I don't know what to do. he said when we broke up he'd never love anyone else. I can't function now and I can't talk to my friends because they dislike him and feel I'm better off without him. They don't know how much we cared for each other. When we were dating I used to feel so terrible and think I cared for him as much as he cared for me, but now I care so much it hurts. I'm sorry for such a long post but I had to vent. Was my choice to be a good friend over a girlfriend a terrible one-I felt I owed it to my friend to take her side because I caused her so much pain when my boyfriend and I began dating and changed our trio friendship completely. . I'm so lost I think about him all of the time and wish more than anything to have him back. What should I do?
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