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Posted by toosweet on 7/12/2005, 12:15 am about 2 years back I had a horrible break-up and found so much hope and support in this community. Now bad luck and the same man has brought me back here. Who would have known... Back then, my long term boyfriend of 3+ years dumped me via email on the Holidays and ran of with an 18 year old (we are in the mid 30's). We had an extremly happy relationship and my world just folded and I had the worst bout of pain and depression for months. But I was strong, Hey I am no stranger to the no-contact rule and life was sad and lonely and finacially very difficult (he took our$)but started normalising. After a few months, my ex-bf started persistently calling, sending appologetic letters and showed up at my doorstep after his lady love had dumped him. He promised, cried and sword loyalty high and low and....I took him back.....somebody shoot me! I did. I know what you think, I was thinking it too. But I was so in love with him before and I believed that he was deeply sorry. I was so happy to have him back - it was like my broken hearted wishes had come true! He made up for it, treated me very nice and generously. About a month ago I found a cell phone. Not mine or his! Turns out he had two cell phones, the secret one only plenty of women's numbers and suggestive text messages & photos on it, all from online dating services. The woman where all categorized by location, availability (weekdays)and "hottnes" - how sick and immature. I confronted my bf and he lied but the evidence was clear and I showed him the door without a word. He came by again and tried to call or send email but I didn't take his calls. But I won't put up with a serial cheater. Somehow I am thinking I will die alone now. I don't have a lot of friends and I just got laid of from my job and I am just feeling down now. I know all of us are here because we are hurting and someone has failed us. Just don't take anyone back who has shown no regards of your feelings in the past, it just gets worst. Good luck kids I want to be strong and not loose all hope that love is such a cruel thing.
Hey all,I am *semi* new here.
Its been one month and I feel strangely calm, yes, very heart broken and disappointed, a big gaping void in my life, a lot of regret. I am not bitter, I think I acted as the bigger person forgiving somebody who has hurt me badly in the past.
Sorry I am whiny.
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