Posted by kat r. on 4/16/2008, 3:48 am, in reply to "His anger"
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This is my First X on this board...and somehow it appeared and was meant to be.
I , too.. see where Nancy is coming from..!!
I see looks of disgust.. downcasted eyes..
If/ When my Quiet, appears to others as nice..
BUT NOT-- husband DOES speak,
It is words of ANGER..aimed at me.
We are at war..
I, too, asked him to just touch me.-give me a hug..
but he only shoved me away when I tried to sit next to him..trying to be ever so nice...
We now battle ... Steal from each other..
in this mind-word-ME constant other battle..
... which I've not gained... stay in the house for days.. & only get...sleepless nites, no support, no name an older house.
..Feel like I am waking from a terrible dream..now
.don't even now have a car or house of my own... and he sold all
Then he goes to my sister's house and our 3(in 20's yr old sons) and speaks ill of me... They won't even come in this filthy...house.. where they throw there dogs and unused apt. things.. in 2-3 rooms..
Then, have the nerve to cast in eyes of disgust!!!
No maid can be found that will tackle all this..and I too am WEAK.. plain worn out.. too...
I left our nicer 4-bedr house to come to his parents home before this began.. 3 yrs ago...
Today he told ME:" Get out of my mother's house==
" YOUHAVE WRECKED IT !! LOOK AT THIS !!"
Truth is I cannot handle all this..,
but HE has never and can't either..
he gets to walk away..
doing those extra hrs,
or goes eat with my sister
&her MR neat(folds- HER -shirts..) Polo man brother-in-law...= Sorry but those days of me working taking care of his parents..my children.. and being the MAID.. are now OVER !!
--Forever GONE in the PAST.... never to be again...!!
NOW steam..... builds inside him.... anger or for lovers......
...
... NO kind words.. spoken.. now... probably-gone forever!!
I see other men who are kind.. will touch...- even nice to me..
Then TODAY--
My husband ...told ME to Leave his mother's house--after he's sold all we'd worked for.house condo, cars, land , and 3 hunting clubs here!!!---Then HE bought some 10hr away hunting land...= an 100yr old house that needed 30,000.00 worth of repairing !!
--NOT- me--if I would've gotten a SAY in all...
said it is HIS retirement !! WHAT ABOUT--- ME ?
(though saw he's talk to other women.. while I was With him..))-but I did not know at the time.....
HAD he planned on me dying early ??
and now ANGRY because I AM still here????
NOW...what to give atty.... or what .... to do...????
I tell him I AM NOT DEAD...nor intend to be..!!
What would you do?
I am at the loser in the money+ love game..as all cars..house ... etc...and things once...jointly owned
now are....recently sold.
And what about other LAND 10hrs away??
other land,etc bought ... put only in HIS NAME.-but mine also on old house..
. help me people... I am 53...
some days good.... some bad.. hard to get out and see.. rsvp....kat
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