Posted by Deanna on 1/6/2009, 10:43 pm
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I can't believe this is happening, it is happening too fast and the Dr's want decisions. My mom is stage 4 with mets to lung and bone. On Saturday she became really short of breath and panicky so we called 911. Her oxygen was low, but up until then she never required oxygen, so they decided to keep her overnight for observation and on a little bit of oxygen. They suspected she had a lung infection and started antibiotics. 24 hours later she was on 100% oxygen and still struggling so they put her on BiPap (an assisted form of breathing, but she was still doing all the work), she was on that 20 hours when she continued to deteriorate. They called us right away to make a decision about intubating her. Mom said she didnt' want to be kept alive on life support, but she said she wanted the tube put in so she could rest and fight this infection. 24 hours later, she is in ICU, on a vent and they aren't even sure if this is an infection. We have a family meeting with Dr's tomorrow morning at 8:15. Mom nods "yes" when I ask if she still wants to fight, but she is scared. I feel like I'm going throught he motions right now, not really sure what to do. They wanted to do a CT brain to see if the disease has progressed, but she is too unstable. She just finished her 3rd cycle of chemo and on Dec 31 we were told the cancer was responding to the xeloda. What is happening here, I am finding myself thinking the worst and I'm not ready to say goodbye, I'm not sure I'll ever be ready. How do you get ready. My mom is my best friend, and my mom, I don't know how to do this. I look at my son who is 3, who is asking for his nanny and it breaks my heart.
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