I am so desperate, I even feel like giving up college, although I love to study. But I don't know what to do. I have never discussed about this with nobody. I am glad I found out about this web site and see that there are others who have this same problem. I fell very sick. Please if anyone could write me and give me a piece of advice or just some encouragement.
I have just discovered this website and I am so glad. I am a student and tonight again I felt worse because of my toilet phobia. I am so desperate that this idea came to me to try and look up on the internet and see if I could find something that will help me.
As I said I am a student and live with other 5 girls in the flat, is awful, it's sooooo hard, when I have to go and use the toilet. I knew I had this problem when I was back home.
I remember going with my boyfriend in a trip for a day and at one moment I felt like I need it to use the toilet. SO we went to a public toilet, it was so terrible, i could not use it. I did not know how to tell my boyfriend. So we went to visit some nice places, but I felt very sick. I said to him I don't feel well and that I need to use a toilet in a hotel. OH, it was so bad. We could not find a hotel, we went to a museum, I could not use it there either, I was soo embarrassing by now. Then we went to a restaurant and all that day, imagine was spent on visiting toilets. I felt so bad.
I have a big problems that ruins my life day by day. I wanted to go to college and do something with my life, so here I am. But my toilet problem are getting worse and worse. Each day I run through the campus from one toilet to another. But is useless, because lots of people come in an out. And when I came back to my flat its full.
I went to a doctor and tried to explain, but I think she understood wrong and she gave me some laxative medicine. I took once some and it made it worse, my belly hurts. I am miserable, very unhappy. I don't know where to go, what else to do. I cry all the time and feel so sick.
Thank you for taking time to read my message and I apologize for my bad English.
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