as i mentioned in some other post i do not consider my family the most understanding people. some are very judgmental indeed, sarcastic, always looking for faults and brightening up when finding one in other people. so anyway my boyfriend was up for visiting them, and i felt really bad for taking that away from him. has anyone ever been in a similar situation (where our condition also affects other people) and maybe have any idea how to get out of it? when i told my boyfriend i can't visit them (they literally keep asking every couple of weeks) because of "you know what" i sensed that he turned a bit moody, he got silent, walked ahead of me when he was first holding my hand (we were walking in the park at the time) and probably thought why does she have to have such a stupid hangup..of course he denied this when i asked him. so that didn't make me feel any better either. Emily
only then some family member invited us to stay over for a weekend sometime (they had already invited me repeatedly and i always put it off and said yes sometime..) they live a few hours away in a flat..i couldn't possibly accept the invitation so i'm in a right dilemma..
i would never tell this particular family member the real reason because word would quickly spread and soon our whole family would know.
since this is a very private thing for me the thought i would from now on be considered as "the one who can't go and must therefore have some weird issue" is unbearable and i can't allow that to happen.
bit sad i know but this is why i can't tell.
thanks for the patience for reading my quite long post.
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