I'm the exact same way! If I'm within a certain distance of my hometown (say, any town I've lived in or the surrounding ones) than I cannot go. I just can't. I will hold it until I feel sick. It doesn't matter if there are people in the restroom or not. I just can't bring myself to go. And if It is just such a dire emergency that I absolutely cannot hold it, I usually am so panicked and freaked out even if no one is in there that I finish too soon and end up not wiping well enough or something like that. Then I feel stupid afterwords. On the opposite end of the spectrum, though, if I'm out of state, say at a theme park or an airport, I can walk in with 20 other people and go without even flinching. Its really odd. I think I know why I'm like this, may post about it later...
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