why me
Posted by john on 4/9/2009, 10:30 pm
I dont know how I have done it all my life. I feel cursed. Not only cant I poop when I want. I cant pee either in public restrooms. Anyway, as far as pooping, I remember we were over my parents friends house and i went to the bathroom. I remember my dad walking by after I went and and making a comment in front of his friend about the smell. His friend said "When you gotta go, you gotta go". I was embarassed. Maybe that is where it started, not sure. All I can say is that it has limited my life and relationships. I have made excuses for not going on vacations and traveling. I have a girlfriend of 2yrs now and she wants move in. I just cant do it. She doesnt have a clue why. She stays over most nights. I get up at 4am, have my coffee (whichs helps me go). Then around 5:30 or so, I get her up and send her home while I tell her I am gonna take a shower. She works retail and sometimes goes in late or is off during the week and yet I send her on her way at 5:30am. I am sure she thinks I am an idiot. I am just too embarassed to tell her.
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