Posted by michael musslewhite on 5/10/2004, 2:20 am
205.188.116.10
hay ty,
listen i think to myself sometime that if i would have taken the oppurtunity to follow just some of the paths you tried so hard to show us boys maybe i could have been stronger in the lord you may not have ever known but i thought you were so kool you had the life i always dreamed of,you had friends and family that showed just how much they loved you and when i came to live with you and your family all of you showed me that equal love i thank every one of you for just being my friends more less being my family still today when i think of or talk of y,all your not the stutzmans your my mom dad brothers and sisters i pray sometimes just to ask the lord why i wasn,t aloud to stay i never wanted to leave i recall when my case worker told me i could go home i played like i was scared to go back but really i just didn,t want to leave the family and friends i had in the stutzmans and ccc were like nothing i had ever even dreamed of i think of the things you had to go though and i m so proud of you there is not one person in this world i could amagine making it though everything you did as strong and dedicated as you did your my hero i try to keep in contact with mom and dad as much as possible i just always seem to find my self falling into the same temptations and it always feels like there is no one there to talk to that is when i find myself calling them i feel bad because i am sure that they have relized that by now but i wish they knew that it is also because i love you guys and girls and it seems like i have noone else to trust tyler i miss you and i need a favor when i am in trouble or lonely or just boarded i find myself talking to myslf well maybe i could come to you in prayer or something just so i dont have to talk to myself and maybe knowing i still have a friend you could just possible give me the push i need i am not asking you to bail me out just when times are rough and even good i will not have to talk to myself i can talk to my brother and friend iwill be praying and keeping you in my thouhts i`ll write again soon i promise thank you again and i miss you
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