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Posted by adrian on 6/3/2006, 10:38 pm
It's been hard for me. I still love her and think about her all the time. Im paranoid at the thought of her being with other guys or messing around with them.
Things have been great between us for as long as i could remember. We were the most happy couple in the school and everyone thought we were adorable together. we started going out in 8th grade just 14 years old. It was at a tough time in her life with a divorce of her parents and i helped her get thru everything. Within one month i knew i loved her, and unlike anyone i had before. She was amazing: beautiful, cute, funny, hot, adorable, nice, knew what to say, and introduced me to real love. Everytime i was with her, i was on a high. Anyways, ive been such a great bf to her and this past month she ended it. I think i probably trapped her a little bit holding on too tightly which she doesnt work well with. Im so depressed now that its over. It was the best thing that ever happened in my life. After a week of disputes, she started thinking about taking a break. it scared me, and although i didnt want to, i agreed. within two days we were together again. then the next week was even worse, she was never the same to me and didnt have much response to my actions or conversation. Again we took yet another break. Again resolved within two days. Finally, the dagger was a week later of break up. Sad as hell, online im, and we just cried and cried. The reasons: were 15 years old with a whole life ahead of us. I knew she was the one, and would have been content with her for the rest of my life. she needed independence now and space. What she wanted was to be friends. Well, two days later we got back together as i had given her space and we had seen each other twice and had fun together. the final breakup 3 days later and i had to accept it. Well, ive had mixed feelings. Part of me knows that being friends can be fun and great. Part of me will not give up my love for her. so bad went to worse when i let my emotions show later that week. I got pretty mad, and kind of ignored her for a day. Then i saw one of her guy friends calling on her cell and i answered it. Bad move, then after that i asked him why he had called her. strike two. Now shes pissed at me, and i really hope i dont lose her as a friend. She called me out on it telling me i had no right to answer her phone or ask why someone was calling her. I really screwed this up. I should have just been fine with being friends. Please, anyone, time is the only thing that can heal this but if anyone knows how i can genuinely show her that i am fine with friendship, then let me know because i really do regret acting the way i did
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