Who says im not a fan.
The Boss is one of the few using his platform for good in this moment.
He had some good tunes back in the day.
"Glory days" often still echoes in my personal internal play list. " Man he could through that speed ball by ya" will forever remind me off childhood pal Jeff Hoover.

" The look in a young girls eye" flashes memories of a long list of cali girls i knew intimately.

That is a great song that has stood the time for me.

But, hes jersey roots stuff isnt something that played to my soul. Much if neil youngs stuff does. Sublime and pearl jam pethaps more than any musician.

Recently i have ELO cued up on pandora. Early police. Love the album regatta de blanc. One of the best, no bad tracks, albums ever. Grateful dead, clapton & Tom petty rotate through often.
A ton of motown. Curiously. Not something i often played or owned in my youth. But appreciated now in our current era for its uplifting melodies & pisitive message/vibe.

Sringstein leaves me feeling melancholy nostalgic. Sad for Jeff Hoover. Sad for the young cali girls i knew in innocence, and later. Of the addict they became.

No, i dont dislike springstein.
Enjoyed his tunes when they came on the radio back in the day. Great song writer that captured the moment.

Ive mentioned it before. I led a tough childhood.
More the people I associated with than my personal self. Ive often mentioned. To my knowledge. 90% are either dead, addicted or in some phase if prison/parole. Selfish fun memories of my moments. Really sad retrospect of the supporting cast.
And if you havent heard me say it recently- here goes again.
I am one, extremely lucky fk. Blessed beyond anything i deserve. By the grace of God go I!
Statistically. My life is an anamoly!
By all rights? I should more likely be in prison or dead long ago.

I.mentioned her the other day.
Officer Sharon Wilkerson. ( Or dod I delete that post before i hit send?)
Her & my Pops.
The 2, kind, tolerant- gently guiding me - souls that coaxed off of the path i had created for myself. Without those 2 influences?
I doubt id be here in this moment as the man i am now.

Not a day goes by, that some memory of youth doesnt inspire a "thank you jesus" prayer.
I left off a final person i often thank jesus for.
Pastor Bobby. In Eagle River, Alaska.
I wish i had written down the date.
Out of nowhere. Through a tangle of conspicuous circumstance. The Pentacostal minister that slammed me backwards in my back. With barely a tap of his index finger and a mighty shout- "HEAL". In the moment. I was at first extremely doubting of the entire charade. In the next moment i was saved, transformed. I kid you not.

That moment changed my life. Suddenly. In a flood. I understood the grace that had been given. Arrived me at that moment. And my oast became an understanding of the destiny Ahead.

I could write a novel on that one that nobody would believe. Quite honestly. There are times i question it myself. If anything before thenmoment of being " saved" really happened or if it was all a dream... I still struggle. To this day. Reconciling it all! And when i attempt to discuss it with a friend or family member. I see the doubt in their eyes/ body language reactions. Its a shame. So many of us even before social media & "fake news" era. Doubt unabashed truth when they hear it. But believe the spun yarn eagerly.
Maybe? Bc much of naked truth is uncomfotable. A spun yarn entertains.
Idk.

Everything i write here. In this space. Are truths. As i remember them. If i recount specific conversations. Of course theyre not word for word. Rather paraphrasing from memory but with the same meaning from the moment.
Some of what i written? Is uncomfotable. Bc it is. It makes me uncomfortable too. Some is entertaining. At the time the subject/event occured or was learned. It wasnt neccessrily entertaining. But it felt profound to me. Became comitted to memory. Over time. Safe from reprucussion. The memory if it is often entertaining.
Nonetheless. Its all truth.

Lol... Man. I just cant give a one word reply.
Forgive me. It should be noted. I do actually erase nearly as many replies as I post. If i take the time. Go back & proofread this one. I likely will erase it. Hence. So many posts by me dont get proofread. I try an proofread by paragraph. As im writing. The problem is. The words flow so fast. No filter. I can put down 3 paragraphs before i think to check spelling spacing.

Forgive me. I dont have a 3rd party editor on staff. Lol.