I wish I could send you a box full of energy and confidence and relief...but all I can do is offer you friendship and understanding and empathy. We all walk this path and sometimes its a tar pit, but you do have it in you to pull yourself out and get past it. It's there inside of you. Just as the original MaryL is too. You were not put on this earth to be miserable and depressed. This is a prison you are not meant to be in. Lets bust you outta there!!!