It is such a relief to find that other people suffer from this toilet affliction also. It has been present for most of my life (I am in my fifties now) and it does not seem to get any better.
I hate to travel or stay anywhere overnight, even at my boyfriends who is aware of my problem. I told him early on in our relationship. Him knowing though, does not bring the physical relief that I need. I am hoping to one day make the break through of going while he is in the house!!! I also tend to hold on to gas which is agonising, while he happily emits farts without a care in the world.
Oh to be able to fart and poop when the need arises.
I cannot even go at my sisters house so will only stay a few hours on Christmas day. Gotta get home to the toilet!!!!!!!
Anyway thats all for now.