oh where to start.... i havent posted for a while but i have come into grief with my anxiety of going to the loo. boyfriend stayed the night, come morning i need to go and hes in bed sleeping, and i really wanted to go but was hesitating and pottering around getting nervous and shaky, i thought i just need to go so i attempted. OMG, i was shaking on the toilet and i was so tense, my bum didnt want to co operate, then i was getting upset and cursing myself on the toilet and carrying on i felt so yuk inside and a failure!!
i was on the verge of panic attacks that morning so i just had to think logically and asked him if he could take my son too and go back to his house and il run "errons". lo and behold when they left i got another urge and went properly.
now this is the only place i can let it all out! i am comforted by others with this affliction too.
personally i just think im a tense person, maybe il grow out of it i dunno.