yeah it's reassuring to know that I'm not the only one who feels this anxiety. I only say there might have been some event in my childhood that has caused me to do this because I've always been sort of averse to defecating in the first place, as strange as that may sound. I know it's a completely natural process but for a really long time I've connotated the act with dirtiness.
And I am not OCD either, I'm far from it. Very average in terms of neatness and orderliness. I just want to fix this because I know that it's not right, and what of the some-odd billions of people who don't have privacy when doing something as natural as this?
Well, I'm leaving for a trip in a few hours with some classmates so I'm going to have to bear it this time. Hopefully it won't be too bad.