I totally understand! I get angry when I can't go to the loo, especially if I'm out or at work. I keep thinking that the public toilets are not private enough. I get scared someone will look under or over the cubicle door or hear me and be disgusted with me. I also get obsessive about cleanliness, like this condtion makes me disgusting. I buy loads of perfume and wet wipes and deoderant and feel that even if I'm not in the loo, everyone thinks I'm disgusting and dirty. I have no confidence in myself even though people have great things to say about me. My insecurities have led to several failed relationships and I'm losing loads of weight from irregular eating patterns. If anyone has any more success stories that would make me feel better. Ta. x
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