I cannot believe that I have found this site. People that can actually relate to what I am going through. I used to think that it was from a shy bowel, but not I think it is entirely psycological. Mine started when I went to work in an office building with shared restrooms. For the first 3 months I didn't understand, but the problem got worse and worse. Mine isn't that I can "go" with somebody around, my problem is that I never even have the urge. It flls like my stomach is in a knot 24/7 usually right under my sternum. Like the muscle cannot relax and it keeps my stopp from moving into my colon. I have certain triggers to help (playing online poker, wierd right?), but those lately are not even helping. I recently got moved out of that building and am doing an assignment away from my family. I thought I would be cured, but it has only got worse, even with nobody around I just can't do it. I have resorted to ememas twice a week. It just does not seem like there is an end in sight.....
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