i just discovered this website and yours is the first blog that i have read...oh my gosh... change the circumstances and i could be reading my own story... the only difference is if i haven't gone to the bathroom, which I can't, I develop horrible, embarrassing gas...
laxatives don't work.... or they work too much... either way they cause gas.... so, i've gotten to the point that if i'm going to be staying at someone's home I take enemas and a towel for the floor to lie on.... next i have to find a time, usually around 2 am when no one might need the bathroom... of course, i have to pack carefully so that all of that stuff is on the bottom of the suitcase....
and yes I am jealous of people who can go whenever they need to and wherever they are... sitting at a dining room table with lots of people if one gets up and is gone for a long time, i'm probably the one who notices or cares.... and i AM wishing that that could be me... i do not discuss this subject with anyone... the most I will say is that I have problems going to the bathroom when I am not home...
like you i also can't even go when at home if someone else is there or if alone and pressured for time...
i am sorry that you too are suffering... i totally appreciate you telling your story...
p.s. good job with your english... your story could have been written by someone that English was not their first language
sandar
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