I'm Katie and I really need to talk too. You poor thing. I completely understand what you're going through. But good for you. You got married. Lol. I feel as if I have to be alone my whole life due to this irrational fear. I can't go if anyone else is around either. They say tell ppl, but when I do, ppl look at you like " what's the big deal? Just poop." Then this makes me feel like there is something so wrong with me and really plays on all my feelings of self esteem.