Thanks for your post! In some situations my problem improved, sometimes in a strange way, or in a way that I didn´t expect. But this thing with the ex boyfriend of my sister it is a very special thing: When thoughts with him arise, my body is in a shock situation, and I feel my body "closes"... And the aggravatingst feeling is, that I do not have control over it. The feeling is that strong, that I feel like its victim. But I would like to be stronger than it, and get my control back... It is a very bad feelingwith fear and helplessness...