In all of my TCBing, I've really been dragging my feet on getting some new pictures for this internet dating. The whole experience is just really disheartening. If you put a lot of effort in, eventually somebody will agree to go out. But then I don't want to go out with them again, usually because they're really unattractive. And that makes me feel bad.

But worse is when these unattractive women don't want to go out with me. Or you'll message some unemployed chav who won't respond.

The best example of this is the 300 pound American woman who stopped replying after I sent her a picture. I didn't know that she was 300 pounds until I looked her up years later. This mastadon deemed me undatable. Last I looked, she's back in New York state doing low-paying admin work for a charity.

That's another thing. Women who would rather go back to their home country than go out with me. It's worst with Chinese women. I know that they like China and China isn't as bad as Western propaganda says but it still rubs me wrong that somebody would rather go to China than go out with me.

So that's why it's difficult to get motivated. And taking these pictures is a whole other depressing experience. You have to take hundreds and hope that one is halfway decent enough to be Photoshopped into something semi-presentable.

Anyway, Crusader Kings. My last king died in battle and the new king was 10 years old because in this backward pagan kingdom, the youngest child inherits. It really causes problems. But anyway, he's 16 now so able to rule but he sucks so I can't really do any more conqurering. I'll use his kingship to build up the infrastructure of Afghanistan so at least my holdings will be more powerful. Won't have to be so afraid of my vassals in the future.