I'm trying.

Not gonna happen.
It's tedious.

I ended my computer sciences career very early on because, it is all very tedious.
It's one thing to play with it here & there, as a hobbyist. I can't begin to imagine how my life's trajectory would have been altered if I had stuck with it after my 6 months employment at sun micro.
Oofdah! After 2 weeks I hated what I was doing... But I stick by for a while. Hoping I'd discovery something within that cubicle world with redeeming excitement. Nope. Being a squirrel running on the wheel, powering the bleak plain box was not my idea of a 50 hr week I could do & remain happy. Retrained... Wound in just another larger bleak box(pharmacy).

Became a teamster truck driver and was happy as a clam... Outdoors, engaging w ppl every day. I especially loved the gig I landed in AK. 4am to 1pm. 3am to noon in summer. On the golf course a very many days, just 15-20 minutes after I punched the clock... And still be there to grab my kids from school.