I am not happy with the numbers on the scale but it makes no sense to avoid the hard truth. I have to weigh in to have a starting point. Seeing the numbers gives me something specific to work for. I am happy I haven't reached a point that the only way to weigh in is on a shipping scale. I had a friend at work that could only weigh himself on a freight scale. He eventually had bariatric surgery and happily has taken back his life. The hard truth is I can't waste another minute being as fat and as miserable as I am. Being obese is a great excuse to avoid life but I have to deal with letting go of the wall I have built around myself. Seeing those numbers means it will be the last time I have to see those numbers.
So last night when I got home I was weak-I first turned to guacamole, then had asparagus instead of junk food, and some water with lemon juice and stevia in it. The asparagus helps eliminate water weight and has very few calories so I don't feel too bad about that.

Day 2 first shake of the day and black coffee.

Everyone have a good day.