thanks -- I didn't see your email address, would be glad to correspond off the site here. My "control" ie lack thereof, is so great that if I am NOT totally alone and am out in the world and even if I had food poisoning, everything turning to liquid in my guts -- well, I cannot go to the bathroom AT ALL. My body locks. IT is so depressing because I have no more choice in the matter. I cannot make myself let go at all. It is just terrible. Thus the desensing thing is very hard to pursue...becuase my body shuts down as soon as I am with people. Obviously, this means that I have a very shut down life with no intimate relationships
Just so you know, I have been in numerous therapies and am currently in therapy all with very reputable doctors. This has consumed my life...and I do think like you that there is strength in numbers as it were. I wish I had fellow suffers not only to gripe to but to find the solution with. (Mine is not a diet issue by the way. Coz as you say, I can defecate when the conditions are right. It is all a psychological issue with me). Do you share this problem? Or is it a urination problem? I am unclear. Anway, I am very appreciative of your posts!