Well, you are really doing something. I will reread this at another time as I am about to go to bed! However, I was disappointed to see driving directions; I not only don't own a car but don't even know how to drive, alas. I'll reread this later for a better response.

PS: The thing that amazes me about the goal that is often achieved by 12-step participants is that "the obsession is lifted." That they do recover. I have met anorexics who weigh literaly 95 lbs who gain normal weight and lives through 12=step. Miracles happen. I don't know, I am so demoralized by this problem of mine....mine developed out of eating disorders. I transfered my shame and compulsions to the other orifice!! I never felt comfortable in a 12 step program merely because of the symptom: All the feelings discuessed were the same, just the symptom was different but enough to make me feel like a freak thus, as the lingo goes, "terminally unique".